[Lanna in Arizona]

I am pregnant, with raging hormones...and a HUGE sexual appetite! My hubby can barely keep up! lol! We have always been strongly connected in the bedroom.

We've had issues in our relationship, even divorced and remarried. We were both unfaithful, unfortunately. That has stopped and he has pretty much moved forward from it. I, however, had had a harder time getting past it. I was upfront about my actions due to guilt, he, on the other hand, made me believe he was faithful while he was not and continued having extra-marital affairs for over a year, maybe even two. This was YEARS ago! He has only been with me for several years.
But because he lied about it long ago, I sometimes wonder if he could still lie.

This sounds off the wall, but...I have recently been attracted to the femal anatomy and have been honest with my husband about it. He said he always knew it was a part of my character and that one day it would emerge. He isn't opposed to me trying things out a little bit. We've even had some fun talking about it. He wants to be there to watch, but he doesn't want involved at all. He wants me to have fun and thinks it would be sexy to see me get a little "freaky".

It's crazy almost...we have almost been getting along better and my fears have even seemed to subside. I think because while we have surfed the web for "potential parties" he hasn't given the slightest indication that he is attracted to anyone else besides me. It makes me feel safe, somehow, adored... even.

I wonder if my curiosity has sprung from feelings that were already there (I've always found women attractive, have just curbed the curiosity for common sense)...and if maybe somehow...it sub-conciously has offered a way for me to relate to him. Like, if he was attracted to females...i was curious (probably very unhealthy?)...Now, seeing he only wants me, regardless of attractions...will this give me a way to get free from that insecurity and make me feel sexually free.

It makes me feel sexy to think my husband would watch me with another woman and not try to be with her...and that he is supportive of my curiosity without judgement.

What do you think??