Am I alone in having a rape fantasy?
I am a newly divorced 20 year old woman who has an unusual fantasy. I have a rape fantasy. I feel very alone in this fantasy and have rarely shared it with others, due to its taboo nature. I in no way feel that real rape is acceptable, I myself have been raped and while it was a horrible thing to happen I couldn't help but be turned on by it. I am very confused as to why non-consensual sex is such a turn on for me. I did not have an sexually abusive childhood, and its not that I cannot find sexual partners. I have worked as a model for adult websites and have almost no limits to what I will do sexually. I feel like my fantasy contradicts my values, for while I can be very wild sexually, and enjoy women as well as men, I am very old fashion as to what I feel a relationship is.
I guess my question is, is this a normal fantasy for a woman to have? What is the best way to bring up this fantasy to a new partner? I fear that telling a new partner this might scare him away. Is there a way to safely experience this fantasy?
Thank you,
Christina Marie
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