I'm going to tackle the family issue first and give you my opinion on it. If you're thinking that you need to stay with your fiance because you're worried his and your family, stop. This is a decision you need to make for yourself, not for your family and not for his family. You mention the two families so I can tell that you feel that family is very important to you. I'm not saying that family shouldn't be considered important but the focus is on you, not them. You need to do what feels is right for YOU.
You're having an extremely difficult time letting go of the wrongdoing you did with the married man. That's why you feel like you are not worthy of him. If you've admitted your faults and you can forget about what you've done in the past, then you would have an easier time moving on. However, I sense that you still cannot let go of this married man and what you two have done up to this point.
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