[Hatez]

your question seems to be are you gay or not well it sounds to me like we must look at the defonishion of gay or homosexual, you said you did enjoy anal stimulation and crossdressing but when you did it with men you didnt like it. i belive that the correct definishion of homosexual is someone who enjoys sex with someone of the same gender.
you enjoyed it up until you did it with men now if you didnt enjoy it then i dont see how thats gay it sounds to me like your into feminization or sissyfication and strapon training which i belive is part of the bdsm fetish.
so i wouldnt worry about it