[That Guy]

My girlfriend and I have been dating for over a year now. It was always going so great between us until somewhat recently. I can never see her, and when I do, it is most of the time a heartbreaking experience. She never seems interested in me, and usually denies me when I attempt to kiss her. But then again, she used to always deny my kisses back then, and she still does now. Most of the time when I try to sit next to her, she always tells me that there are other places in the room where I can sit, but we never even see each other for weeks to months. She breaks my heart almost every time I see her, because I feel as if she doesn't love me, or never did. Sometimes I think shes not dumping me because I feel that she is trying to spare my feelings. We almost broke up about 5 times, because she tells me she has "Mixed Emotions". I do everything I can in the world for her. I've given her my heart, and there was never a moment in my life where I treated her like dirt on the road. Every time I drop her off at her house or we part ways, I feel as if my heart shattered into a million pieces. Honestly, she is my first girlfriend, and I always feel if I loose her, I can never get another. But the thing is, I've never met a girl with her type of personality. But the way she treats me kills me inside. I've always been dumped or denied by girls in the past, and shes the one girl to accept me. But even now, she is denying me, and just putting me aside. I do everything I can to make her happy, because I care more for happiness than mine. But I don't want to loose her because my heart can't take it.