My first concern is the new medication. I strongly suggest you talk to your doctor and don’t make any major life changes soon after starting or changing medications. Especially what we like to refer to is ming altering medications.
After you've spoken with your doctor about your new medication and the possible side effect of new sexual desires, rather than suppress your desires, talk to your BF and explore the options that you’re both interested in, gradually. But you have to at least talk about it.
Also explore your emotions around the idea that it’s bad… Don’t just dismiss it off hand. Same for all fetishes and fantasies. You're beating yourself up for something you've never even tried. Many people are into various levels of BDSM - you don't have to physically hurt someone. For some, it's more of a mind game.
My real concern here is that i don't feel you're being honest with yourself. I might even suggest some time with a counselor to work out these issues in your head before making any drastic life changes.
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