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I worked at a shop that deals with metal and in memory of my ex-girlfriend i decided to ask my boss if i could come in on the weekend and pursure a project of my own and that it wouldn't take alot of time. While we were dating i really became accustomed to her fisting me... i've been with a couple of girls since but it has been doing nothign for me. I even had to fake an orgasm during sex once because i was starting to loose my erection... I even tried out gay sex to see if that's what i needed... i couldn't find a man who even came close to what it felt like when she did it. But It wasn't just a physical thing... i just can't be with men. I know that know. so when i got the okay from my boss i had an exact replica of my ex's fist... we're still good friends and was willing to help. Ever since my replica had been completed i have been able to climax again. Since then i decided to try my hand at trying to date again... when it got to the point where we were about to have sex i entertained the fact of how I personally like sex. the girl was so disgusted that she left my house and since i worked with her, it eventually spread around the shop. Co-workers who i thought were my friends stopped talking to me and had to find another job. This need for a certain kind of taboo physical climax has turned my world into a shame. I'm feeling realy down and would really just like some help.

My question is this... Do you know anyway that i can move past this dependancy to this type of sex? Some way that i can begin to have a relationship and a normal life again?

I'm really counting on you guys for this.