Hey Nancy,
Firstly, thanks for the maturity compliment, I appreciate that very much. Now, I'll give you guys an update on my situtation right now. Well, the girl I loved is now in a committed relationship with that guy that I saw her on a date with. Apparently he treats her well and that's good enough for me, I am truly happy for her if she is finding what she wants in life. She seems happy enough. I haven't talked to her since that text message exchanged after I saw her on that date, it's been about a month since then.
Do I still love her? Yes. Do I think if her and I got together right now that things would work out? Not a Chance. It's a hard thing to accept that (at least for the time being) you can't be with the person you love. I do fully believe though that the if love we had was really true and really meant to be, things will work out in the end. Until then I'm just trying to be a good person and enjoy myself and my time with other people that aren't her. I've found someone new, a med student who is so independent and free, it's inspiring. I really feel that in this life we all have the ability to love more than one person; I really loved my ex girlfriend, fully and unconditionally, but maybe it's time for me to love someone else now. Maybe down the road I'll find love again with my ex and maybe not! The point is that is exactly what the beauty of life is right? You never know what to expect, and that's what makes it exciting. I've learned not to dwell. Oh, and when we did first break up, for the first month or two I really tried to let her know how I felt and told her I wanted to work things out but it served to push her away. I guess I could have committed some last ditch, movie-like, act of grand romance to win her back, but I decided not to; I want someone who will be with me because she wants to be, not because I had to pull some awe inspiring act to win her over.
Now, I'll try and offer some counter advice for you. Three weeks is nothing, if this guy is anything like I was, he is praying every night that you'll call or text or email him saying you want to meet or get back together. But remember, he has also read every piece of guy related advice and material saying "play it cool, make her miss you, and she'll come back". If you really love him and think he would take you back (or are unsure whether he would or not but still feel the risk is worth the reward) then you need to take your own advice and make the first move. In the end, if you guys are happy together a year down the road from now, no one is going to care who had to get back who to make it work. I made my effort and it didn't pan out, now I'm just waiting in life for a situation with her to present itself with her again or an opportunity with someone new. Life goes on though!
Now, if by chance he doesn't want to work things out or get back together, it'll be okay in the end whatever happens. From my first post to now I realize how much I have changed, accepted the situation, have become okay with it, and now in fact draw positives from it. Whatever happens, you sound like a strong person and I'm sure you'll be just fine.
This response was kind of scattered, I apologize for that! Hope the advice is somewhat okay and I thank you for caring about my situation. It's really funny, I hadn't been on here since I posted my update, today is the first time I have logged in since then, pretty good timing since your post occurred today!
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