[FreezeFlame]

That was rather crude in some senses. Oh well.

Anyway, all I can think to say is:

What you feel for him is normal. You like him, it's as simple as that. It's the same as if you liked a girl, she'd be on your mind no matter what as well. I've experienced both, so I should know.
Don't feel bad because of how you feel for him. You can't beat yourself up over your sexuality (Trust me, there will be enough of those who WANT to in the future). You are who you are. Embrace it, love it, take pride in it. Just let things run their course, eventually the feelings will fade. I don't think of my old guy very much anymore, and certainly not with such longing and fondness as before.
I trust that you are who you say you are, just as the people on here trust that I am who I say I am. There's no need to prove anything to me.

You're quite young, you'll make gay friends in real life once you're closer to adulthood. Don't rush things so much.

There will be other boys who you will feel much differently for. How you feel now isn't what I would consider entirely true love. You know you're in love when you get to know the person very well, and feel the same feelings of desire to be with them while at the same time feeling a rather tranquil feeling when your thoughts drift to them, rather than a sort of nervous pain.

I'll try to make it online, but don't stay up waiting for me. It's no wonder you feel like such a mess right now, you're making yourself crazy with all of this lost sleep and focusing on one person.

I have a dirty mind, very much so. Well, some would consider it dirty, but I like to consider it "sexually-comfortable". I can talk to mostly anyone about sex and taboos without feeling awkward at all, which is something people aren't used to seeing. I have a reputation at my school for it, actually. Some people get really creeped out by the fact that I'll openly talk about seeing shock porn, but that doesn't bother me. Plus, they all eventually HAVE to like me because they all want to find out what I'll say next. It's fun, really.

But yes, I'll try to make it online. If you catch me during your normal hours, great. If not, oh well.