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We kept our friendship strong and kept talking to eachother and what not. But then the big whammy hit me. She started ignoring me after we got into a small fight about something she lied about but she forgot she did the thing that we were arguing about so it wasn't her fault and an hour later I apoligized for being so mean. She said it was all good and that she had to go. Then I tried talking to her later and she never answered me, she always answers when I texted her so I asked why she was doing that. No answer, next day, I tried talking again, no answer. I sent her a mean text asking why the hell shes ignoring me, telling her to stop and if shes busy she needs to tell me because she usually does. Still... no answer. I found out her cat died, and she was upset, I apoligized for being mean because I understood what she was going through and figured that was why she was ignoring me, but she was only ignoring me so that couldn't have been it. I watched her read my text the next day while we were on the bus, she just closed her phone... I kept texting her later asking why she was ignoring me, and I asked if her friend's boyfriend had said anything and told her I'd never do anything to hurt her just incase he was starting more crap. I finally got a response when I told her she was hurting my feelings by ignoring me... the response left me with tears brimming in my eyes. She said she liked someone else and he supposedly likes her too and she didn't want to ruin their relationship by talking to me. I let her know that we were just friends and she didn't need to ignore me for that, even though I understood why she did it because she knows I like her for more than a friend. She said they weren't dating or anything but that they hadn't got there yet. I was crushed and she said we could remain friends but not talk as much. I think this guy is the one I referred to earlier as the one she said she talked to frequently because she still talks to him a lot while she ignores most of the other guys. I didn't talk to her for 2-3 days until she finally sorta talked to me which hinted to me that she still did want to be friends. This brought me out of my bad mood, but not entirely. Anway, I talked to that guy today and found out he already has a girlfriend and I don't think that she (the girl I like) knows about this girl because she (his girlfriend) doesn't goto our school. I also think that she is assuming the guy likes her even though that they are probably just friends because this guy talks to a LOT of girls. This made me think 2 things; A. She doesn't know about this girl and is going to be hurt when she does find out, or B. She lied to me because I was possibly coming on too strong and didn't want to tell me she needed space. I'm not sure if this is even the guy she could like, but there is an extremely high chance he infact is the guy that she might like because she talks to him so much. However she could've just lied to me as easily or there is a small chance that she likes someone else but I have no idea who it might be because she barely talks to any guys anymore except this one which makes me think that it's him.

All my friends were cheering me telling me that we need to start dating, etc. Girls telling me I am really sweet and that I care about her so much, blah blah. Then they were sorry to hear all this happened and that I needed to move on, but it doesn't necessarily matter what they think, it's just what goes on between me and her because I still have feelings for her even though she has hurt me.

If theres any bright side it's that she is talking to me again, but I'm not sure how to handle the situation at this point. You basically get the gist of what is going on here, even though I may have left out some parts but it was a lot to grab from my memory in a short amount of time. I really need some advice on what to do here... Thanks.