New sub..how can I please my master?

[subo9]

Hi
I've just entered into a dom/sub relationship with a married man from another country who visits mine maybe four times a year. I've never been in this kind of relationship before and know little or nothing about it so I seem to be getting things wrong a lot. He insists I never question or challenge him on anything if this is going to work. I once asked a question that he perceived as a challenge and was punished for it with a belt. I didnt enjoy it at the time but afterwards thinking of it turns me on. I need to more about what I should and shouldn't do.

This weekend I told him I was going away overnight to see a gig and by the following afternoon, when I managed to check my email which is how we communicate daily except when he occasionally calls me (obviously I cant call him), there was an email asking where I was and that I was close to being in trouble, to send him my cell phone number. I emailed back to say I would be home in a few hours and would email him then and as I was driving with friends who don't know of this relationship I didnt send him my cell number.

When I got home there were a series of furious emails from him, telling me never to question him or have the audacity to decide whether or not I would follow his wishes, that he would have to punish me for this when he saw me (in about a month) or I would never learn. He says he loves me but I must submit to his will completely and that way paradoxically I will have more freedom than I ever had. I have just come out of a very controllong marriage.

I love him and have beeen very upset all night, not sleeping or eating, waiting to hear from him.

Can somebody help me with how I should behave in this realationship as it's all new to me? I have read about having a 'safeword' but the sex, while rough, has never gone that far yet. He says if I don't learn to obey him completely he will never train me properly. He says he loves and adores me and I feel so bad I have dissapointed him like this.

I hope someone can advise me.

[stephen]

My honest answer to you on this to tell to get f**ked. Since i do not know the mean of his hostlity. Which didn't you say he was married? Oh get a life. Sounds like you need find someone to help you along with you master/sub life. Not do a complete shutdown of your life around this asshole. Now if he cannot talk you with out yelling or raising his voice. Find new new master. You are learning this must take time for you and him. Once you see where your role is then your life will be easier.

Wish you luck

[subo9]

Stephen, I know you are a senior member and I respect that, but telling me to get f***** and get a life will not help me. You comment was not positive and helpful as I thought comments on these forums were supposed to be.
He may be married and in another country but he is strong enough to be in a relationship with another woman and still have me as his slave and love and protect and take care of me.
It's not like I just met him, I have known him for nearly 9 months and in that time have grown to love and respect him and he has helped me enormously. he has only asked me to be his sub in the last month and I am still learning what this relationship means. I did a lot of reading on the net last night which helped me understand better how these relationships work and what is required of both of us.

He has never shouted at me, mostly he is tender and caring. He explained why he got upset that I wasnt in contact, that he needs to know I'm ok when I'm travelling., not br left hanging wondering. He called me yesterday to make sure I was ok and not upset anymore because he loves and adores me.
I would like so much to hear from other subs out there, for them to share their experience with me, it would help me so much because I want to do this right for me and him.
Thank you.

[subo9]

To any other subs out there - could you please share your experience with me?

I would love to hear from you, this is all so new to me

Thanks

[She_Who_Loves]

Hi, I understand that this is new, but a couple aspects of his behaviour steps outside of the dom/sub relationships that I know of: The way he called you and seemed to want control of that part of your life when you were out doing your own thing. Things vary person to person, but have you and he discussed where this is heading, what parts of your relationship will fit where? Is this purely a sexual dom/sub without aspects pervading your day to day life? Will this only apply while he is in town, or when he's far away? Will you still be his slave while in public? Would it/he prevent you from completing any of your goals?
The second thing: If I understood earlier, this relationship is kept secret from his wife? Are you okay with that? In the dom/sub relationships of my experience where the couple has other partners one of the key tenets of respect is that all parties are aware of all activities between each other. This includes when members of different pairings or groups engage in activities with one another. The basis of sub/dom is respect of all the individuals involved.

[She_Who_Loves]

I suggest TheBeautifulKind who frequently writes on here. She has a website,
The Beautiful Kind which is really helpful and often quite fun!

Good luck with your choices.