Its over :(

[pezimo]

Hi, we and my girlfriend have decided to call it a day with our relationship... We said we are staying best of friends because ibecause we have been threw alot but, I really do regret it! I am 18 and my girl friend is 23. we live about 2-3 hours drive away from each other. We both love each other very much, but because I kept on making stupid silly mistakes which she said was heart breaking and because of the distance it just wasnt going to work out.

So, me and my girlfriend met 6months ago on the internet, as we both signed up to "Camp America" and we both got accepted in the same camp to help and do activities with people who have disabilities. Everyone who was going to the same camp was on facebook getting to know each other. Me and my ex did not talk much untill we both arrived in america, it first started off as being friend and at the end of the day we use to go down to the lake and talk for about 3 hours about anything, then we started to talk about personnal stuff and really bonded well and we both trusted each other and become best of friends. Then we finally we talked and started dating, We were dating at camp for around a few weeks till i had to go home back to the UK(personnal reasons) it was very upsetting for both of us and we decided to try and make it work. she got back about 2 months ago and we were texting and ringing etc...and we said, lets make this work and have a long distance relationship. so we did! Obviously every couple have little arguments, and I done some silly stuff which she says I broke her heart, She can only think of 4 times which I broke her heart.

1. It was our 1month anniversary and she was getting really happy etc.. to see what I made her. I coulnt do much as She was still in america. So i decided to make her a little poem, there is 5 hours time difference so I had to wait till she finished work at 10 pm so I could send her it and read it out over phone. So it was around 3am Uk time. she finally got on msn and i tried to send her the poem but it didnt want to open and her internet kept on cutting off... so I said look its not that special, il just ring you and read it... she got in a mood and said I broke her heart.

2. After having sex the first time, she started to have pains in her stomach etc... and we were very worried, about 1 months ago when she was back in Uk the pains were still there so she decided to go to doctors. (I aint gonna say alot as its personnal) and doctor said it could be "something" you can catch it either by a STI or bacterial infection. so I was worried that i could have a STI so i asked mum for advice and she said go get tested and it all come out negative. but she got reallly crazy about me telling my mum about her health. and that broke her heart (which i understand)

3. just after number 2 we were not talking alot (this was about 2 weeks ago) our mate asked me how our relationship was going... I said "it could be better" and my ex said it was i broke her heart again because i told some1 that our relationship was going well and that person was gonna spread shit etc...


4. just a day after 3, i was on facebook and I said a silly comment on a photo of this kid obsessed my girls.. for a joke I said "you need to get laid"... wasnt funny at all and i do admit was immature and etc... and my ex said it hurt her again and that she doesnt expect to go on facebook and expect me to say comments like that. ( i did delete the comment for her)

So as you see the last 3 have been in the past month?

We love each other alot and we really wanted this to work out. But we talked on the phone for 2 hours and we decided to call it a day because we started to argue about silly stuff and because of the distance. We decided to stay best of friends as we have been threw alot and we still cared and loved each other and dont want to lose the connection we have.But because she doesnt want me to break her heart by doing silly stuff and because of the distance between us. But this is what got me when were together, when I done them silly things she told me she wants a man not a boy, and she acted tough that she didnt really care about the relationship.. and it sound like she wanted what she wants. but when we broke up she told me the truth that shes not strong and coulnt sleep at nights and was crying over the last few days! but as she wanted to be all tough she didnt tell me any of that when we were together

I really regret what I have done and I really want to get back to her as I broke her heart and I want to be her man and fix it and give it another try! I love her too much and I want to be more than her best friend!

Anyways I have been threw alot and I cant go on anymore! i need advice on what to to do! I love her to bits and so does she as we have told each other! I have begged her to give me another chance and I will fix what I have done but she said not now we cant.

any advice would be appreciated.

Regards

Pez

[pezimo]

Anyone ?

[Dan And Jennifer]

That's really tough. So just to recap - how often do you see each other?

[pezimo]

Well, due to my new job i can only get to see her 4 times a year because the way they do the holidays where i work sucks... I have told her that after I finish this year in college I will start to make plans so i can do my new corse where she lives and relocate in her area...

As my job is just part time, as I am in full time education still... I also said that I will change job, so I can get beter holidays and that I will be able to see her at least once a month.

I am a very dedicated person... takes me a long time to fall for someone. With my ex i fell for stright away I really want to do my best to make this work.