3 Years Long Distance/ Age Gap

[hunybabe]

Ok i will give you a bit of background.

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I met my now ex boyfriend on Paltalk (Chat room) we hit it off straight away few weeks passed we didnt keep in touch its a chat room god haha. Well few weeks after we first met i forgot my password so made a new screen name as did he. I was chatting to this guy in a room and it turned out to be him. We continued talking for a few weeks we exchanged phone numbers. We have so much in common its scary, the ammount of things that have happened to us that is just one in a million honestly if i told you you would think i am lieing! I am not just a silly little girl that fell in love quick it took me a year to tell him i loved him.

When i got with him he had just come out a 10 year relationship and had moved back into his parents house

He was 31 turning 32 i was 17 turning 18 (please dont jump to conclusions)

He lives 100 miles away from me so the distance is not that much but he has a very demanding job the hours and getting time off is a bit hard, He also has a child who is 5 this year ( i dont see this child well i have looked after him once, talked to on the phone, i was prepared to talk on a child that is not mine to be with him)

We have been together for 3 years like i said and its been the best 3 years of my life i would see him every 2nd weekend or 3rd weekend depending on work. It would always be at my house unless his mum was away for the weekend then i would go visit him (which by the end i thought that he just didnt want to be seen with me because my age or his ex seeing me -she doesnt know about me) we were always texting, calling, playing on the xbox together basicly always in contact.

We went to America in October for 2 weeks he paid for it all, he was never harsh with his money as he earned alot more than me but i would splash out when i could, We went away some weekends and i spent some time down at his while his mum was away.

He said the reason he didnt want me comnig to visit him was because he was a
35 year old living in a loft and he feels like a 15 year old having to sit in his bedroom with his girlfriend. He has been looking for a house for about a year but living with his mum works just now as she looks after the son.

He always said that he was not ready for me to move down with him but we talked about being living together etc

I have never hid the fact i want to be with him down where he lives and he knows i would do anything for him including giving up my home,job, family, friends. He said that was such a big commitment as what happened if it didnt work and i would be left with nothing and he doesnt want to ruin my life. Him moving up here is not an option as work, and his son.

Am not going to lie we do have our shouting matches well i shout at him for not texting me back straight away or when i thought he was playing away. Long distance played with my head a bit becuase he could of been up to anything (i know he wasnt but there was always something there that made me think he was)

I just couldnt get in my head why someone like him would want someone like me even though he always said i was stupid for thinking that..

I have not seen him since 29th June as work has stopped him I wouldnt of seen him until August near the end has looking at his shifts just now would of been about 2 months or more.

So on Wednesday night i started texting him asking when he was coming up ( As i thought he was coming up on wednesday as i was off work) He decided he was not coming up coz he would have to leave Thursday for work.
I told him i could come visit him thats when he told me that he feels daft sitting in his room with his mum down the stairs and also he had things to do.

I went a bit mad and said how do you think i feel when my own boyfriend would rather look at cars, go shopping with his mum than see me who he has not seen for a month. He called me up and said "If thats the way i feel then just finish it" So i did i told him that was it really.

I have been texting/ talking non stop since we finsihed just talking about everything. I asked last night was it the right thing to do he said "Just now, Yeah"

It went on to talk about how i dont want to loose contact but i dont want to know about new boyfriends/girlfriends.

Thing is i still want him and am pretty sure he still wants me.

Sorry if thats all messed up my head is a bit messed up the now.

[Saishuu]

Um whats the question?

But yeh if you still want him go for it.

If you want the relationship back I don't think it would be hard to back him into a corner in a conversation and ask "do you still want me", "ok lets start seeing eachother again" -ask this when you know he can see you.

Now you've realised you shouldn't be dumping him because its not gonna make you happy, do you think you can remember its a long distance relationship and he probably doesn't want to drive all that way to drive back the next day, and not break up with him next time over it?

lulz. Good Luck.