a 12 year olds endless misery

[SoraMoonSong]

I Love him I honestly do i have had crushes before

Crushes feel like a magnet drawing you to the person even if u have just met, like a child wanting a toy.

He is the only person I ever sought, desired ,wanted I feel my heart beat under my ribcage when I think of him , spine tremble when i am near him and my body just feels "new" when he touches me.

He probably just thinks I am his "cousin" ( a note : we are NOT related) but I love him.

Who am I trying to fool? I am only a twelve year old boy. Such things are not normal to feel - I had done my studies. Thanks to mandatory Sex Ed I know well that though a male's body is able to function sexually as early as eight years old (this is a ball-park figure), such stirrings are usually uncommon until mid-to-late teenage years. And, what was more was, the secondary sexual organs were like a fleshy key to a fleshy lock.

A man to a woman. The furrow to the plow. There was no lock and key between man and man. Or, in my case..boy and teenager boy.

I will always love him until my heart rots away

I will love him forever.

And yes come and comment tell me how pathetic I am, tell me how desperate I sound and all this over a 16 year old boy.

And yes this gay.

[scifi_aaron]

All I'm going to say is, it's pretty normal for people of your age to go through this, it happens to people of all ages but even more so to those in young to mid-teen years. Of course you will start to have these feelings, and it is common for them to be for the same sex, it is possible to stay with you but it is also extremely likely that it is a phase of hormones in your system that will go away in weeks to years maybe, but it likely won't stay either way. Even if you still feel like this towards boys in years time, oh well, it is pretty popular these days. Don't worry so much, so far you are normal but people aren't open enough to tell people this.

[jeanintro*quitex]

You're not weird, pathetic or anything bad. You're just in love.

Yes, it will be hard for him to notice you. No, it doesn't matter his or your gender. 4 age gap seems HUGE when you're a teenager (or almost one!). This is something you will have to suck it in and move on. No, I am not telling you to do it right away. Take your time. Enjoy it! Having a crush on someone is fun. Just don't get to the point where you stalk someone. That's creepy.


Good luck, boy! *hugs*
Jean
-Who has a crush on a guy 4 years older than me, too.