so... what now?? Guy trouble.
Hi, my name is Jane and I am 18. And quite frankly im sick and in desperate need of some advice. Please, if you take the time to read my story thank you. Im just looking for some guidence. This is my story:
8 moths ago... around the end of December I was over a friends house to look after her kids for the afternoon. While I was there someone came in, i was just making cookies with the kids and he just kinda strolled in, introduced himself as Jack, their next door neighbor who frequently stops in and is close with their oldest son, Sean. Sean was upstairs so after taking a cookie Jack went up to be with sean and I thought to myself that he was attractive but I didnt think much of it. Later that day, I began to feel ill. so I just layed down and watched a movie with the kids. I had almost fallen asleep when someone started scatching my head, unexpectedly it was Jack, he said that they were going to the bookstore and wanted to know if i wanted to join. I told him i felt sick and i should stay home with the kids. But how sweet, I just met him, it was a pleasant surprise. Long story short.. i ended up getting grossly ill in a matter of hours to the point where i was vommiting before the boys got home. They came back to find me curled around a toilet. My best friend, Jayla, who is friends with Sean. was with them. she came to my side and held my hair back, all frendly like. The situation didnt seem to amuse Sean verry much and he left seemingly in dicust... however, Jack stayed. and when Jayla we to go get water or something he would just stay there and talk with me. Although the situation was really awkward it was nice. I was in no possition to drive home, so when my ride arrived, Jack offered to carrie me down the stairs. I couldent understad why someone I had just met was being so nice. And that was how i met him. After that I saw him increasingly often just around seans house when i was watching his younger siblings.
One particular day he came around and sean wassent there. It was a cold day and it was snowing, so me and the kids were outside building snowmen and whatnot. When Jack arrived I took the kids inside and warmed them up, it was late, so they went to bed. Jayla was also with me, as she normaly always is. Jack was dissapointed to hear that Sean wassent there, but stayed anyway. so it was just the three of us and we just kinda chilled and watched TV and chilled. I sat by him and we just kinda kept warm. He was always so friendly, never made any sexual inuendos or unnessisary comments... wich i wouldent have minded, but it was just sweet. And that night I learned why. Turned out he was dating someone, Diana. and they had been together for a while.. almost a year i think. At that point in out conversation Jayla got a phone call from a guy that she had liked for a while, Kyle and he invited her to a party at his house. Knowing how these parties usualy end up, I started thinking about how i was going to get her the next day. I figured id walk. Since we didnt have a car we walked long distances everywhere all the time. Anyway, when Kyle arrived to pick up Jala from Seans house, Jack decided it was late and should get going as well. The next day it was after school when Jayla called me to make sure i was getting her a ride. And i tyold her id just be walking. It turned out the Kyles house was not a hop skip and a jump away. it was a good ten miles... but i figued why not. so i began walking and after about a mile, Jack pulls up beside me in his car and askes me where im headed in such cold weather, I refresh his memory about Jaylas wearabouts and he told me to get in his car its too cold to be walking. so he literlaly plucked me up off the saide of this highway. And when i got in the car he didnt take me to Kyles house... nope. he took me to his house.. and i was in no position to argue. Im pretty sure he just thought it was bullshit that i should have to pick Jayla up (what he didnt understand was that i owed her big) so he just took me to his house to get me out of the cold. So we just hung out at his place and nothing happened we just had some juice and watch movies and wated for Jayla to find her way to his house.. wich she did eventualy. I know that was kinda mean, but she understood that i kinda liked Jack. After that I realized that I loved spending time with him. His presence just became like a gift. I fell in love with everything he did. Especialy when he was with his dog. He has this dog, who he is incredibly in love with. And if im ever with a guy its not really a big deal weather they are an animal lover or not. But the way he was when he was with his dog was so cute. It just took my breathe away. We talked about where he worked and i said i would visit sometimes.. but i didnt want to be too forward... I knew he had a girlfriend. I guess i just wanted to weave a net persay.. so that if they ever did break up he knew i would eb there for him to fall back on if he wanted. I just wanted to let him know i was available. And i think i did. I had to waalk by where he worked after school every day so it wassent out of my way to stop in and say hi once or twice a week. Sometimes id bring him cookies or something and we would talk for a while and we would hug and then id leave.. i got to know the ppl that he worked with as well, who are all verry friendly, and mostly guys. so they would tease him about how i was his "girlfriend" and he didnt seem to think much of that. just kinda smiled and moved on. and this went on for a while. a while... like 7 months. I figured id be patient, and that he was worth the wait.. and that him and Diana would have to break up sooner or later. It all happened so quick.. ive never fallen for a guy this hard... especialy not this fast. I just fell in love with everything about him... the way he drove his car, the way he did his job, the way he talked, the way he hugged. And over time the more information a aquired the better.... i charrished every little bit of it. The memories of him are permanently embeded in my brain. And i know that sounds kinda stalkerish. an i guess it really is. But im not obbsessed with him. Im in love with him.
Anyway, about a week ago, i heard the Jack and Diana had broken up. I was Overcome with joy, I vissited him at work twice since then... but nothing particularly differint happened. One time after he was done at worke we just kinda drove around for a bit, but no big deal. I mean i realize that i shouldent expect too much, i know i like him more then he likes me. And i know the he just broke up with his girlfriend of almost a year and a half. If he dosent like me, he dosent share his dislike openly. Like we will talk and he dosent seem to hate it, But i dont know what to do in order to let him know how much i like him without being creepy. Basicly thats my problem. If there are any guys out there that would like to explain whats going on inside his head. Im afraid if im too straight forward it will be even weirder then i already am, but i cant go threw watching him date another girl.. i couldent handle that, it would kill me. Moving on isnt an option. Ive whole heartedly tryed. But with any guy that likes me i just cant do anything with them without feeling unfaithfull to Jack.
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08-22-2008, 04:08 AM
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