I dont find real guys attractive. My mother insists I need to "get out more."

[AnimeGirl]

Well, first let me clarify a few things n.n'

When I said I dont find real guys attractive, it means that I am a lesbian. My mother nor any of my family knows this, they're very religious and Im afraid to upset them.
And not to mention, Im not 18 yet and the girl Im in love with [and shes very much in love with me, we do talk] lives a long ways.

As my username suggests, I like anime. As in, when it comes to guys, I don't like real guys. . .
I did try dating a guy one time, but I just didnt want to hold hands or kiss or do anything. . .relationshippy.

But yet, I create my own world [which yes, I do realize is just in my mind. But I like it better than real life] with a particular character Ive been in love with for over 3 years.
Our anniversary is 5th of Jan. This past year we were married shortly after.
Of course, there are things that go on over there [plots to the anime are sometimes the same, though me being there can sometims mess things up. Like a character that was supposed to die didnt somehow] and sometimes he doesnt have time for me.
I understand that, and it doesnt bother me, I still love him just as much.

Ive never liked the idea of living as an ordinary human, even when I was about 8, I always wished Pokemon were real. That was when I started creating my own worlds, which id stay in even during full consciousness.
Its very realistic, and one time I was even stabbed and I could have sworn I felt it, and the next few days my side hurt.

Since I was first interested in love, I always thought of whatever character I was into at the time.
It wasnt till I was about 12 that I took interest in the character Im into now, and weve been together ever since.

My mother seems to think Ive some sort of mental disorder.
I was even placed on medication at one point.

I admit that Im not social at all, but I have friends Ive met online that are a lot like me. As a matter of fact, my girlfriend is the same way and we dont mind each other having our own little worlds.
I was bullied continuously as a kid [another reason I dont have friends where I live, I dont click with anyone] and my parents divorced when I was in kindergarden or maybe first grade.

A few years ago, when I had a "real" boyfriend, he wound up cheating on me, but I found that I didnt care. It didnt bother me at all. If it had been the anime character that I love, I wouldve cried my eyes out.

Im very happy with him, I love him more than I believe I could ever love a guy here...I mean, I just dont get into guys here, and I only love a girl if shes sweet and kind.
For me its more about someones personality.

I realize that my fantasy world is just that, fantasy.
I love the girl Im with, and I have no desire for a relationship with a guy here.

I do, of course, have horomones, but I instead find that masturbation is easier for me. If I ever had sex here with a guy [I have had sex with the anime character Im with, obviously. Feels just as good over there, and I do not masturbate while Im there. If I did have sex here, Id regret it later. It just seems...rather disgusting to me personally.

No offense to anyone, but thats just how my minds always thought.

Anyways, my mother [and my father, too, though he tolerates the anime pics on my wall] thinks I should have sex now with a "real person" but I dont want to.
Im perfectly happy with my secret girlfriend [whos parents are fine with her being lesbian] and my anime husband, but I cant just tell my mother or father ever detail...

If they find out Im homosexual, I think they'd never forgive me.

Any help would be appreciated, thank you for your time very much.

[Beagle]

AnimeGirl: Do you have some form of autism, such as Asperger's Syndrome?

[AnimeGirl]

Originally Posted by Beagle

AnimeGirl: Do you have some form of autism, such as Asperger's Syndrome?

Id never heard of that, but I read about it after you suggested it could apply to me, and most of the symptoms do.

Not only reptitive ineterests, but also the face that my nonverbal skills are horrible but Ive always been gifted with English. Ive even been asked for the honors class, but Im kinda lazy so I preferred the regular class.

Im horrible at Algebra and so far havent even passed algebra 1 :/

I do lack the want for any kind of "real" relationship, other than with my girlfriend, but we actually met on an anime site. I do care deeply for her, but as for wanting relationships [not all romanitc, friendships I mean] with schoolmates or such.
I do lack empathy for others as well :/

And also, I do have a slight speech impediment so I suppose I could have Aspergers Syndrome, but my mother, whenever Ive told her even in a joking manner that Im "messed up" shell say something like "No your not, and dont say that! Your just like everyone else!"

I believe she might be in denial that Im differant. She always wanted a stereotypical teenager :/

[Xero]

There is nothing wrong with being a lesbian. If your parent's don't like it that's too bad, if your not conferable with telling them then don't it's almost none of their business.

If I where you I would be very careful with the online relationship. It could be some one just being an imposer. Just putting it out there so you don't get hurt, and if you ever meet them, go with someone you can trust to meet a person from the internet.

Your imaginable world is a bit concerning, but you stating :

Originally Posted by AnimeGirl

I realize that my fantasy world is just that, fantasy.
I love the girl Im with, and I have no desire for a relationship with a guy here.

Seems to me that you understand the difference which is good. Just don't let it get too out of hand and affect how you act and make good decisions in the real world.

Just don't let your parents force you to have sex now, it will ruin the experience for you. I'm amazed that they said that because you said they are religious. That's not very religious considering your supposed to wait until marriage.

I think this response is a bit offenceive I don't mean it to be this way. I'm just trying to answer your questions and state some things that I see.

[Beagle]

Originally Posted by AnimeGirl

Id never heard of that, but I read about it after you suggested it could apply to me, and most of the symptoms do.

Not only reptitive ineterests, but also the face that my nonverbal skills are horrible but Ive always been gifted with English. Ive even been asked for the honors class, but Im kinda lazy so I preferred the regular class.

Im horrible at Algebra and so far havent even passed algebra 1 :/

I do lack the want for any kind of "real" relationship, other than with my girlfriend, but we actually met on an anime site. I do care deeply for her, but as for wanting relationships [not all romanitc, friendships I mean] with schoolmates or such.
I do lack empathy for others as well :/

And also, I do have a slight speech impediment so I suppose I could have Aspergers Syndrome, but my mother, whenever Ive told her even in a joking manner that Im "messed up" shell say something like "No your not, and dont say that! Your just like everyone else!"

I believe she might be in denial that Im differant. She always wanted a stereotypical teenager :/

AnimeGirl: I think you need to talk to your school counselor. They are in a really good position to help in situations like this. After reading your post, I think you are going to need more that I can give you on an internet forum. Ask your counselor if he or she thinks you might have Asperger's.

[MounTains]

Adlai clears his throat. Everyone looks over at him. He stares down at his clasped hands for a beat. He's anguished about what he's going to say.AION NAVI

[willywonka]

Try to open your eyes. The world and people around it are full of colors and characters, just like the anime world. Don't let it blanket you completely and start embracing reality. Masturbating is not all that bad but don't just be content with it all your life, because there's much more to life than pleasuring yourself alone and hiding in your own special place.